My Name

Since Kianne and I both have unusually names, when it came time for me to pic my topic, I choose, "How I feel about my name."

To be honest, growing up, I HATED IT! I couldn't buy cool rainbow pencils with my named stamped in gold. I couldn't have the matching pencil case. It sucked. Now that I am older, I appreciate my name. For various reasons. It is uncommon. I like that. I like being the only Carma in the room. If someone says, "Carma," I'm the only one who responds. It makes me unique. What makes it even more special to me is that I was named after my grandmother. My mother's mother passed away before I was born. I think mom was pregnant with me. My parents had decided that my dad would name me. I don't know if always had Carma in mind, but I am grateful for that name. I know that it was hard for my mom to call me by my name for awhile. It made her think about her mother. I remember when my grandfather was ill and was close to dying. I went to see him in the nursing home and my mom told grandpa "Carma's here." I don't know if he thought I was me or his wife. Either way, seeing the smile on his face was wonderful. He had basically been unresponsive for awhile, but when you said the name "Carma" he found the strength to smile.

I got curious and tried to search for the meaning of my name on baby name websites. I couldn't find my name. I found Carman, Carmen, Carmellita (which is what my sister calls me), and other variations. So I really have no clue what my name means. If anyone knows, feel free to tell me!

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After I posted my blog, my aunt sent me an email with some more information that I didn't know. Here is what I found out.


"But, to clarify, yes, your mom was pregnant with you when Grandma Carma died on March 14th, -- while your dad was in Colombia, (the country) as it happens. Your mom would not call him, stating that she didn't want him to interrupt his trip and come home. So he did not know Mom had died and the funeral was all over and done until he got back from that church mission trip. (No matter to me one way or the other -- but at the time, we were concerned about Lynette having to deal with the death, the funeral, etc, w/o your dad, since she was pregnant. We honored her wishes and did not to try to secretly contact your dad ourselves.)"